A Fountain of Youth Pt. 05

Another crazy day almost past us, I was more than ready to see the dark of nighttime. Before I went to bed that evening, I resolved again that this had to stop. I knew I sounded like a broken record, but I desired peace more than anything else in my entire life, more than the arrival of Christmas in my childhood, more than any hard-won career achievement, more than any accolades that came my way for any reason.

Time to shut it down, destroy the temptations, and resume our previous life together. I'd had enough. Every couple endures some amount of fighting and bickering, but not like this. Our relationship was taking body blows, even with the immense sexual pleasure that the nearly constant score-evening had produced. I wasn't sure we could survive a steady diet of this kind of behavior for much longer.

Sleep came with great difficulty. For some reason, I kept thinking about the way we'd started out. Many of those memories felt like ancient history as I began thinking back.

Every couple weaves a kind of personal mythology. The story line, the narrative arc nominally tells how two people ended up together. But eventually this account turns strict fact to complete folklore.

Thirty and some odd years together felt like eternity and yesterday simultaneously. An active player in my life, we shared more than history, and it seemed incomprehensible to me that she might somehow no longer be in my life. I couldn't cast us aside, no matter how much hurt and pain I felt.

As the story goes, we ended up in bed shortly after our second date. If I had it to go over again, I might have chosen to pace myself, to wait a few weeks before indulging. It happened probably too soon, more so for her than for me. One might think the event was more memorable than it was. The amount of emphasis we placed upon it seemed to indicate its importance in our relationship. It meant everything and, as time passed, it meant nothing.

Our first time together surely wasn't inconsequential, but my memories of that event, that moment in time, are not that copious. Instead, I recall insignificant, superfluous details more than the larger broad outlines and themes one might expect.

For example, I remember noting her blonde and copious pubic hair. I remember how the sweat of our bodies commingled within a few minutes of activity. And I remember lying there after the finish, glassy-eyed, weak in the knees, but thankful. Her bedroom prominently featured several hundred books stacked up high on every shelf. I remember reading the titles as I slowly drifted back to reality.

Almost immediately after we'd had sex, she started backing up. She'd been a warm and tender lover, but became maddeningly evasive and stand-offish not long afterwards. Seated across from me at a restaurant, the place we'd agreed to meet to talk through an important matter, she couldn't even make eye contact. Eventually she got to the point.

"You don't get it. I don't want to like you that way."

That statement put me on the defensive. I surely hadn't forgotten that part of our lovemaking, as it flattered my ego and confirmed my sexual prowess. True or not, I know it was a subjective statement, but I think any man would want to hear those remarks directed at him.

"You told me that no one had ever made you as wet as I did. Were you lying to me?"

"No, I wasn't lying." She looked away, guiltily, uneasily.

No explanation was forthcoming. As far as I understood it, everything had turned out fine. For a time following that meeting, we had to pretend to be friends only, but the real truth always made its way to the surface eventually. We got each other. We desired each other strongly. Mutual friends and close family members reminded us of how frequently we were the topic of each other's conversation.

We started sleeping together again a few months later. It wasn't long before we began living together, too, and then made plans to marry. That had been long ago. The times were different. We were different. The world was different. Our haircuts and clothing and priorities were different.

But nothing had been more intense than the past few days. It woke us up and called out some disturbing, lingering cracks in the facade that we had tried to ignore. We had hoped that an evasive approach would be sufficient. And we were mistaken.

When I woke up late the next morning, I found that something else was different, too. My wife now weighed at least a hundred and fifty pounds more than the day before it. I was yet again shocked to see such an abrupt change in her physical appearance, curious to know how she'd pulled off one more dramatic transformation.

She was stark naked underneath the covers. I assumed that this was because she was not yet in possession of any garment that currently fit her new size. However, as I would fast learn, clothes were not an especially high priority for her at the moment.

She looked like a totally different person, a woman somehow alien to every observer. I'm not sure I could have recognized her out in public with this much extra weight. Her face was rounded and heavier. She had jowls. Her fatty underarms were pockmarked with cellulite. A swollen abdomen and stomach now showed off three huge fat rolls. The buttocks were rounded and expanded, twice the size they had been before. Her pubic mound had stretched out considerably, no longer taut and firm.

I think she thought I'd be disgusted at the way she looked now, but I wasn't. I had resumed the hypersexual thoughts that let me know that I was again not in control of myself. I wanted nothing more to shoot my load somewhere onto her new body.

Was this me? This was unusually graphic fantasy even for me. Were these my desires, or were they part of that confounding force outside of my control?

I enthusiastically and greedily ran my right hand down one huge thigh. I rubbed across her vulva, which pouted open, now immense. I began from the clitoris and made my way swiftly downwards. My right index finger pushed slightly into the surprisingly well-lubricated vaginal opening, the wide slit, wanting to get her off if I could. It was then that she forcibly removed my hand from that most intimate location, grabbing me by the wrist, and glared at me.

"I think you may be mistaken." Her tone was cocksure, fuming, furious.

"I didn't do this for your sake. He'll be here soon. I told him when to arrive."

While I'd been tossing and turning, my wife had been busy putting out an online ad on a BBW website. The site promised guaranteed hookups and complete anonymity for only a nominal monthly fee. Consumed with revenge, she exchanged correspondence with the first man to respond, then informed him she could host.

Imploring him to come by the instant he could manage, she intended that his arrival would be her wake up call. And mine, too. As she had laid it out, I was the eager and willing cuckold, conscious and consensual, privy to the goings-on, more than happy to oblige.

Ordinarily, the jealousy and possessiveness I felt would have scuttled the plans almost instantly. I would have cried bloody murder immediately, laid down the law, and refused to let anything of any consequence proceed. But once again I was rendered powerless to resist.

I was too familiar with the way this force worked, aware of the uncontrollable sexual drive it produced, the fantasies, and the visuals that always undermined my protests and crowded out the anger.

Like it or not, my wife was going to get fucked by another man, right in front of my face. Unable to stop it, I gave in to those impulses and picked an out of the way corner of our bedroom to observe the proceedings.

Before long, I heard a knock at the door. Still naked, my wife sprung out of bed to let him in. To the best of my reckoning, our guest was quite young, surprised that this wild-hair, impulsive desire of his seemed to be successfully falling into place.

Women were usually not quite this bold, nor this definitive with their wants and needs. Though the situation before him might have been the consummation of his private fantasy, he did not exactly give off an air of confidence. This was made plain as he proceeded to shed every layer of clothing in a kind of anxious panic, as if they'd caught on fire.

She was only nominally more confident than he, still learning the parameters of this new body, this new heaviness, the restrictions and difficulties that came with increased weight. The two of them were a perfectly awkward pair and I was there as passive observer.

Even a deficiency of confidence wasn't going to stop her. Fully erect, he lay down onto our bed, flat on his back. She made sure to insist that he should occupy the left side, the side that was my own. Climbing on top of him, she guided his unsheathed, unlatexed self into her, riding him up and down. Her flabby knees and legs rested heavily against the bed sheets.

It was evident that she wasn't totally sold on the position, or this arrangement, or her size, or the man she'd placed inside her, but she was going to try it anyway.

Stationed at my neutral corner, I unzipped and began obligingly stroking myself. My wife's attitude towards this, well, overgrown boy, was more maternal than seductive. She groaned and grunted softly, for the duration of what seemed like two minutes, but was probably closer to five.

Midway through, she wiped away the sweat from his brow with the same tenderness as a mother might do for her son. He came much too quickly and she seemed glad for it to be over. I didn't even get the opportunity to enjoy myself.

I couldn't resist a bit of sarcasm.

"You've crossed this off your bucket list. How do you feel now?"

The look on her face conveyed her sentiments well. The words she spoke next were almost unnecessary.

"How do you think I feel?"

The boy couldn't leave soon enough and I, for one, was glad to see him go. My wife and I were becoming incredibly skilled at cutting off our nose to spite our face. I continued to long for resolution, for the signing of some peace treaty.

But having supernatural powers at our fingertips, we could not help but use them. Once the feud started, it was nearly impossible to put it aside. We fought for the love of battle, but also for the love of pleasure. We both had to concede that it was becoming increasingly difficult to separate one from the other.