Dark Epiphany

Sometimes, I wonder what I am becoming.
This world is changing me.
I don't know why or how.
I can't seem to stop it.

Once, I wanted to be a knight
in shining armor and defend the
ladies. I did so when I lived in
a land where men dominated and the
women received less than good treatment.

I came to a supposed better world.
A place where men and women were
supposedly equal. I discovered that
the ladies could be just as wicked
as the men.

That's the day I stopped believing in
chivalry. It's outdated and should
be banned. It has no place in the
lives of the men and women of twenty-first
century America.

This is a place where girls
literally wrestle boys for power.
Power is all anyone seems to want.
If you hesitate, you will be
destroyed.

The politicians only care about
wealth and power. The judges
are biased. The cops are prejudiced.
When the men have the power, they treat
each other and their women badly.

When the women have the power,
they use it in the same manner
as the men. To dominate. Humanity
has a problem. At its core, it's
evil.

It's not a gender issue. It's not
a race issue. All human beings
are evil. Men, women and children.
Gays, lesbians, bisexuals and transsexuals
as well as their heterosexual counterparts.

Blacks, whites, Asians, Latinos and
all others. All humans have a deep
evil within themselves which drives
them to consume their peers and
ultimately themselves.

It's inside you. It's inside me.
It's the dark side inside all of us.
I thought I could control mine. I've
lost that battle. I've lost the
battle against innate evil before I
was born.

This is my moment of clarity. I know
what I must do. I'm gonna survive.
My conscience is no longer hindering me.
I'm no hero. Not anymore. Why ? There is
nothing worth fighting for. Other than
my own self-preservation and continuing
survival.

The parents of today shouldn't teach their
children to be nice. Playing nice gets you
nowhere. Trust me. I'm a former nice guy.

I was the most elusive of all creatures.
A nice and gentlemanly bisexual black male.
I wanted to help people. I wanted to promote
peace between the races and the sexes. It got
me nowhere.

I thought I could walk in the light.
I thought I could change people.
I thought I could show them another way.
I cannot. Not now. Not ever. I can't do it.
No one can.

Humanity will soon destroy the miserable warren
it calls home, if mother nature doesn't beat
them to it. If I could make a suggestion to the
Creator of the Universe, I would suggest that
intelligence and sentience are overrated.

The most dangerous of all animals is infinitely
more innocent than a newborn human. All humans
are evil. All men are evil. All women are evil.
All children are evil. If you don't believe it,
you're kidding yourself.

I'm not a mysogynist. I'm not a misandrist.
I'm simply telling the truth. I've denied it
long enough. Denial changes nothing. That's the
way things are.

This is how it feels to be me...right now.